You spend a lot of time worrying about things – how you can’t lose weight, or how can you afford to replace the tyres on your car that needs to be done, or how to pay for the food on your table or how long will it take to get THE job that you’ve always wanted?
Then you have it all. You are losing weight, slowly but surely, there’s a payment plan available for the tyres, the food is on special this week and you have enough in the bank to cover it AND you have the job you’ve always wanted. It’s a small company, only 13 people including yourself (my favourite number), the company is growing exponentially and you are going to fit in quite nicely. They buy you all the things you need to do your job properly, they bend over backwards for you and then comes the BUT…..
But you’ve been there a couple of weeks and no one says anything to you about how you’re doing? You are just plodding along in the hopes that you are doing your job in a satisfying manner.
Obviously they are all busy doing their jobs, some are new, they’ve been there a couple of months and they are friendly but there’s friendly and then there’s work colleagues. I’m the front desk, the all rounder, the one that does the work behind the scenes. I’ve always been in large companies so there is always a lot going on but this is small, understandably they’re all trying to make this work and put their own stamp on things. The girl I am replacing has stepped up from Office Manager to Marketing Manager so there’s opportunity for anyone with ambition (I’m not one of them) BUT it would be nice if someone said something like, “You’re exactly what we needed.” OR “You’re fitting in quite nicely.” OR EVEN “Thank you for coming on board.”
I think it boils down to me. I’m paranoid because I lost my last two jobs – both to redundancies but by the time I left, all my work was gone so I sat doing nothing. I don’t want it to happen again. I want to be busy. I want to walk in the door at 9.00 and still be working at 5.00. I don’t want to sit there and do nothing and I want to help. Help make other peoples jobs easier for them. It’s a challenge, and I’m definitely up for it.
This is exactly the job I wanted because I can create my own position within the company and I love the support role so I guess the only opinion that matters is my own. I have to accept that I’m not always going to get recognition or compliments – I guess I’m just going to have to support and compliment myself and hopefully it’s good enough for them, because this is something I’ve wanted for a very long time and I know I can make it work for me and certainly for the company.
WISH ME LUCK!!!