IF I WASN’T AFRAID…..

If you weren’t afraid, what would you do?10645267_448219301988027_1058363001741041012_n

If you weren’t afraid, who would you contact today?

If you weren’t afraid, what would you feel today?

If you weren’t afraid, what would you learn today?

If you weren’t afraid, what would you see today?

If you weren’t afraid, what would you create today?

I know the question everyone asks after this is – What do you have to be afraid of?  And the answer is not an easy one.  I’m 54 years old and yes I’ve been around a long time but I’ve always been very introverted because “no one gets me” and being put down for being who I am has always been something I’ve taken to heart.  Why?  I’m a strong woman who hasn’t had to endure too many bad moments in my life and when there have been bad moments they haven’t lasted that long.  In fact, in my life, I would say I’ve been extremely lucky but in the Law of Attraction, luck has nothing to do with it.  My positive attitude has got me through so many days and nights that I’ve created the life I am in now.10576906_452482654895025_8868697592047447946_n

Having said that I don’t see many people.  I work with many people but they are not my friends.  My best friend died just over two years ago and my other friend lives on another continent.  My friends are my kids and my family and that’s it.

I can lay blame on not having too many friends in the many years I travelled with my family as a kid and changed schools at least 6 times in my life.  I haven’t got life long friends but then again I’ve also always been a loner.  I actually like my own company.  Surprise! Surprise!  I don’t travel, never felt the need and have no inclination to do so in my later years.  I have a new house which I’m enjoying creating into a home.  I write blogs and romance novels for myself as I’m not a big reader and prefer to write my own.

10625031_10152408704568460_1319387674643336502_nSo what am I afraid of?  I’ve tried to do computer courses and each one I’ve signed up for has been cancelled because no one else applies to join it.  I would LOVE LOVE LOVE to attend a course on the Law of Attraction but these kinds of courses don’t exist in Melbourne.  There are “coaching courses” but that’s set up for me to teach someone else and for the amount of money they want to charge I’d rather read a book.   I’ve wanted to go to a seminar to learn a little more about PROFESSIONAL ORGANISERS which are based in Queensland.  They have a course in Melbourne coming up in November but at $1,200 for a one day course to teach me to be my own boss and try and sell myself to get people to get me to clean up their house is not something I’m very good at.  I don’t sell well.  I’d spend more time telling you why you DON’T want me.

So what am I afraid of?  I’m afraid of stepping outside and making a complete fool of myself (I trip over at the drop of a hat in front of many people – embarrassed).  I’m afraid no one will like me (I’m really very likeable).  I’m afraid I won’t fit in (this has been the case for most of my life because I get nervous and that means I get loud and talk too fast).  I’m afraid to even try and that’s what it boils down to.

So what am I afraid of?  The word NO?  People?  That I won’t find what I’m looking for.

What I am guilty of is NOT EVEN TRYING.  It’s easy to sit at a computer and express myself in words like this but until I get off my backside and do something then I’m afraid of living!!

Change is coming… I’m about to be made redundant from my job.  Meaning that I have to get up every day, apply for jobs, attend interviews, meet people and sell myself.  Can I do it?  I have to, I haven’t got a choice. I have a mortgage and bills to pay.  This is my chance to shine and I’ve been working on my appearance (going to Weight Watchers) and my confidence has improved slowly so why not give it a try and see where I land.  I might even land my dream job…. wouldn’t that be great!!

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About daysnet

I am having the best time of my life. I'm 50 plus, divorced, two grown children and just the opportunity to have a life after so many years of scrimping and saving is well worth the time it took to get here. I have a fantastic family with great family values and spending time alone is certainly something I enjoy which a lot of people find difficult to handle. I was born and raised in Melbourne, Victoria, Australia and cannot imagine living anywhere else. Strangely I don't like to travel and have no plans to do that in the future - I say strangely because so many people can't understand this, wanting to travel and experience other cultures - not on my agenda. I love to write and writing romance keeps me from going completely mad. I have found a job that I absolutely love and there are times it affords me time to type out my stories since I write all my stories by hand - I'm never without a pen or book. My motto is ... "People may forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel" I've had many people who I can't even remember their names tell me that I made them feel good and for that I am truly grateful. I have become an avid reader of Rhonda Byrne's 'THE SECRET', "THE POWER" & now 'THE MAGIC". Whether you believe or think it's a load of @#$!@ - I do know that it works for me and my life and I am all the better for it. The Law of Attraction is something very close to my heart and I can honestly say with certainty that it works for me. I am truly grateful for the life I have been given and continue to enjoy. You can't go wrong when you just learn to say "thank you".
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2 Responses to IF I WASN’T AFRAID…..

  1. Jane says:

    You are Unique and that is why we, who have the pleasure to know you and call you friend, love you dearly.
    I am so happy you have found me again after all these years.
    I often read letters you sent to me while I was living overseas.
    My memories of our time working together are happy ones.

    As far as being afraid of something:
    I am afraid I won’t have enough time to say goodbye x

    • daysnet says:

      Thank you so much for making me feel a million dollars and saying goodbye is always the hardest word to say but I believe in moving on after death and I know my friend Twiggy is standing beside me egging me on and I can feel her (I actually saw her after she passed). You’re here whether you’re here in Melbourne, Queensland, Australia or anywhere else in the Universe right now and that is something to hold onto, cherish and realise that we are only a speck in the bigger picture – but what a picture. We’ll see each other again my friend, trust me. I never lie. (OK just a few little white ones)

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