If you weren’t afraid, who would you contact today?
If you weren’t afraid, what would you feel today?
If you weren’t afraid, what would you learn today?
If you weren’t afraid, what would you see today?
If you weren’t afraid, what would you create today?
I know the question everyone asks after this is – What do you have to be afraid of? And the answer is not an easy one. I’m 54 years old and yes I’ve been around a long time but I’ve always been very introverted because “no one gets me” and being put down for being who I am has always been something I’ve taken to heart. Why? I’m a strong woman who hasn’t had to endure too many bad moments in my life and when there have been bad moments they haven’t lasted that long. In fact, in my life, I would say I’ve been extremely lucky but in the Law of Attraction, luck has nothing to do with it. My positive attitude has got me through so many days and nights that I’ve created the life I am in now.
Having said that I don’t see many people. I work with many people but they are not my friends. My best friend died just over two years ago and my other friend lives on another continent. My friends are my kids and my family and that’s it.
I can lay blame on not having too many friends in the many years I travelled with my family as a kid and changed schools at least 6 times in my life. I haven’t got life long friends but then again I’ve also always been a loner. I actually like my own company. Surprise! Surprise! I don’t travel, never felt the need and have no inclination to do so in my later years. I have a new house which I’m enjoying creating into a home. I write blogs and romance novels for myself as I’m not a big reader and prefer to write my own.
So what am I afraid of? I’ve tried to do computer courses and each one I’ve signed up for has been cancelled because no one else applies to join it. I would LOVE LOVE LOVE to attend a course on the Law of Attraction but these kinds of courses don’t exist in Melbourne. There are “coaching courses” but that’s set up for me to teach someone else and for the amount of money they want to charge I’d rather read a book. I’ve wanted to go to a seminar to learn a little more about PROFESSIONAL ORGANISERS which are based in Queensland. They have a course in Melbourne coming up in November but at $1,200 for a one day course to teach me to be my own boss and try and sell myself to get people to get me to clean up their house is not something I’m very good at. I don’t sell well. I’d spend more time telling you why you DON’T want me.
So what am I afraid of? I’m afraid of stepping outside and making a complete fool of myself (I trip over at the drop of a hat in front of many people – embarrassed). I’m afraid no one will like me (I’m really very likeable). I’m afraid I won’t fit in (this has been the case for most of my life because I get nervous and that means I get loud and talk too fast). I’m afraid to even try and that’s what it boils down to.
So what am I afraid of? The word NO? People? That I won’t find what I’m looking for.
What I am guilty of is NOT EVEN TRYING. It’s easy to sit at a computer and express myself in words like this but until I get off my backside and do something then I’m afraid of living!!
Change is coming… I’m about to be made redundant from my job. Meaning that I have to get up every day, apply for jobs, attend interviews, meet people and sell myself. Can I do it? I have to, I haven’t got a choice. I have a mortgage and bills to pay. This is my chance to shine and I’ve been working on my appearance (going to Weight Watchers) and my confidence has improved slowly so why not give it a try and see where I land. I might even land my dream job…. wouldn’t that be great!!