Yep it is only another two days and I will be alot lighter. I just hope when they reduce my breasts that they weigh it all because I honestly believe that I’ve been carrying another baby for at least 30 years. My daughter only weighed in at 6lbs and believe that’s what I will be losing on Wednesday.
I’m not nervous I’m resigned to it now but there are still a few issues I have to deal with. My mother is excited for me – “it’s about time” is her comment all the time now. BUT! And there is always a but. I’m a big girl – although I’ll find out how big after the reduction it’s the time my mother starts to mention “what are you going to do when you get home and have two weeks off? You need to start that diet! Do you know Weight Watchers has that $1 joining fee this month?” If it’s not bad enough that I’ve always felt overweight she has to rub it in at this particular time.
My mother is a small woman as is my sister – as I’ve always said – “the hid behind the door and I got their boobs and their fat”. And I will try to make something more of myself after the breast reduction as it gives me the opportunity to actually exercise which I haven’t been able to do but hey! Why do you have to mention losing weight of any kind? I would have thought they like me no matter what I look like.
Mothers! You love them but there are times you just wish they would shut up.
On the other side my sister has decided to come to the hospital with my mother and me on Wednesday. This is the first I’ve heard of it. She’s spoken to my mother but hasnt spoken to me. Like I said I’m not afraid but now I’m getting a little nervous when they both want to “sit with me” until it’s time. I don’t need looking after YET!
I haven’t been nervous, I’m not and even apprehensive isn’t the right word. I’m cautious. I want to be able to do things I haven’t done before but the main reason I’m doing this is quality of life. I’m 52 years old. I want to be around for my grandkids (if I have them) hey I want to be around for another 30 years for me! I need to find out whether DAYS OF OUR LIVES will ever finish! I’ve got to be around for that!
Seriously I just want to be able to feel comfortable in my own skin and with everyone else telling me what I need is not making me feel any better about myself.
I like me – warts and all and I wish I could accept it so that everyone else would follow suit but at the moment it feels like I’m following what everyone else thinks I should be and I don’t like myself much for feeling that way.
I’ll keep you informed…afterall I have two and a half weeks off after this is all over and without being able to do alot of stuff I guess I’ll be spending more time on my computer.
Have a great one.