I’m an 18G – probably one of the largest sizes but in actual fact I’m probably a size 16 in all but with large breasts you just cant see it.
I wear mens tee shirts at home to be comfortable. Women’s clothes don’t fit. If I buy a size 20 shirt the arms are too long and the shoulders look like I’m a wrestler and the front always gapes which means I have to sew it up before I can even wear it out in public.
I tried on three jackets today – 18 too big, 16 still too big, 14 probably just right but couldn’t do it up.
So here I am at 50 and my family is thinking it’s time for me to say yes. I’ve had two friends get a reduction and it has been the best thing they’ve done and can’t understand why they didn’t do it before. One, however, had a few problems but still says she’d do it again. (she’s a big big girl)
My biggest problem is money. I don’t know if I can afford the $7,000 bill for a breast reduction.
But if I don’t do it…. I’ve already got high blood pressure because of how big I am and it could cause diabetes. I cannot exercise because my breasts jump up and hit me in the face. In most circumstances I have to carry them around when I’m home because they are just so heavy.
They cause rashes under them and generally I look huge when in actual fact I’m really not.
I am going to have to look into this more seriously. I have to go to the doctor and find out what is involved, where I can go and how it is done so that I can make my own decisions. I have to check out my health care cover and find out exactly how much they will pay against what I have to pay. I am then going to have to go to my ex and ask him for the money since it is a joint account and I need to spend it. I’m going to have to be firm and explain it is for medical reasons.
I’m sick of being HUGE without really being huge. I’m sick of going into OVERSIZE shops and find nothing to wear because they are so low cut they drop to my naval or I have to buy clothes that look like tents and the material is not fit for a woman of my age and stature. I am sick of spending a fortune on bras because anything over a “D Cup” and the price goes to $100 or more.
I want to end this life feeling good. I might not be attractive but I want the opportunity to feel good about myself and maybe even wear clothes that I like and that like me rather than the other way around.
I have to find a happy medium and right now I don’t have alot of self worth so I have to start somewhere.